The not knowing what will happen next, and the thought that everything is falling apart rather than falling together to fit into a perfect piece is what create our insecurities and our inability to make the proper decisions, then we panic and we go all over the place rather than just stay still for a moment and clear out everything (which is really hard to do) and then let our inner voice guide us to the proper solution.

This is what PJ did, at the beginning she had no idea what she was going to do anymore because now she had no job, no place to live and she was just sitting there trying to figure out what to do next, at the beginning she panicked, we are all allowed to do that, but then a calming thought came to her head and suddenly everything felt like it was the opportunity she was waiting for, now she could definitely take a deep breath and go after her independence, getting a better job with benefits, and having to just take care of her and her daughter, no one else's children were involved and even though she would miss her kiddos she realized that it was the best course of action in the end.

She found a different job, one she could do from home and that paid by the hour, it was like heaven sent, all she remembers doing is looking up to the sky and saying that she needed a job from home that would pay her by the hour and would offer her benefits and that she did not need much experience to start, then she opened up her computer and googled for call center work from home, the very first option was the company that she would be working for a period of time that she never thought could be possible.

After a few months of her living with her father's ex wife and her little sister, renting a room in their house, she found a way to move out of that city and into a different one where she could actually afford rent on her own, things were finally being put into place, all was fitting in such a way that it was almost unbelievable, she never thought for one minute that she would actually be able to have her own apartment and her daughter could have her own room and she would be able to do it on her own.  But it happened.

Once she moved, it was the start for her to meet new people and welcome more old friends into her life, she started acquiring more moms that she could possibly ever think she would have, and they were all so much like her, finally she was finding where she belonged and started acting more like her.

She was there for exactly one year.  Her legal husband, MR, was no where really to be found and she had made amends with his mother, finally able to let her into her life but always with caution, at the end of the day she was thankful for those that were not afraid to apologize and were humble enough to admit when they had made a mistake.  Not talking to her father allowed her to see that there are good people out there and allowed her to learn the difference between a truly good person and one that only seems good because they will get something in return from her.

It was an amazing learning experience and that small city taught her that she could have a bit of faith in humanity again, taught her that it was ok to love and not be loved back because love is not something that requires anything in return, she learned her true values and who she really was, someone that just wanted to give as much as she could to anyone that needed it.  

In the middle of the year that she was there, MD sort of came to the picture again, saying the words she had always wanted to hear from him, those same words that she knew that the one would say to her and she would just know that was it, there was no more looking, in a way every time she let him go, he would find a way to come back in, and so her journey with him was not really over.  After that call she went to visit and when he decided he did not want to spend time with her because he did not want her to think that they were in a relationship, which is pretty odd since she realized that even after saying the words she always wanted to hear you still have to spend time together and talk and do things together in order to find out whether or not you really want to be with that person or not and all of that takes time, not just one weekend... but she let it go, the very next day she woke up with the grand desire of moving again and she knew where it was that she had to move, then that night he appeared again and they spent that whole night talking, that night she realized what went wrong when she first met him, she knew why he ran, and suddenly it all made sense, one more lesson that she needed to learn: patience and a second one: follow your intuition, it is never wrong even when you at the moment think it is.