I've got God in my mind

Dear God, I pray for guidance and patience, I know I am on the right path I know that you have always had a way of making sure I am on track to fulfill my dreams.
I know that my lack of patience sometimes has gotten in the way and has made me turn the wrong way but I know that you have always been there to make sure that I get back to the correct road. I know that the times I have made the wrong turn it has been difficult to get back to the road I must travel and is mostly because those times I decided to ignore the red lights and stop signs and I just kept going. I am now at the place where I know I am supposed to be, I still do not understand many things, I still don't quite grasp the reason for me to be here but I know there is one and I know I must wait for the answer; patience is a virtue that only you can teach.
So I guess for now I ask for the strength that I need to keep going without going crazy while waiting for everything to fit into place, I ask you for the strength needed to not surrender myself to the daily life and to the monotony of the people, I asked for the strength that it takes to quiet down and listen to you so that I can continue making the right turns.
I know that you only speak when you need to and you give direction when the time is right, but I need to hear you now, I need to know now where this road will take me, I want to know your plan and its outcome and at the same time I know that is not time to know it yet, that I must wait and trust that it will all come out right, that you will make sure that I'm ok like you always have, that you will make sure I remain focused and free of distractions so that I can get there without getting lost on the way.
I know all of this but even though I am part of you, I have chosen to live here in the human form, forgetting everything that my soul knows in order to learn new things.
The human part of me will always be curious, will always be impatient, will always have a bit of jealousy, and most of all will always be afraid, so I ask you to renew my faith once more, I give you my human emotions and will let you fill me up with faith and strength to keep going, to not give up, because I know I am very close and I know I am on the right path, I know I have worked hard and the next step is to just trust myself, to not fill my head with doubt, to block those that will use their doubts and try to fill me up with fear, to block those that will try to make me doubt what I know and have learned from you the one that can see it all, those that will try to make me doubt the gifts you have given me. Yes they can still be my friends but I must understand that they will not understand my gifts, mostly because they don't believe, and I can't ask them of expect them to understand of believe, therefore I must continue to trust myself but must learn to block the doubts, I know you are guiding me every day and I know that whatever it is that's you have chosen for me will be the best all I gotta do is keep working towards it.
I also ask you for the strength that it takes to realize that I must rest, because one cannot just work all the time and not rest, I need to rest in order to gain control of my thoughts and for them to not be changed into doubts, I know that you will make sure I rest one way or the other, but I want to learn to rest before I am made to rest, before illness comes my way and you force me to rest.
I also wanted to thank you, to thank you for allowing me to love the way I do, for letting that amazing feeling grow inside me, especially for allowing me to accept and love those close to me without asking for love in return, thank you for letting my heart be free of negative feelings I know you are the one that showed me how and I wanted to thank you for that even though I know you know I'm thankful. :)

If you'd let me...

Life has been a little hard sometimes, which has turned me a little cold, but deep inside I am full of love.
If you'd let me I would love you more than anyone could, I would care for you more than anyone would.
If you'd let me I would be the best friend you ever had, the one who would not leave your side, that friend that would always be there no matter what.
I know it seems odd to say all this after so long but if you'd let me show you I know one day you would not want to let me go.
If you'd let me show you, you could see that I'm the one for you, if you'd let me love you and care for you, you'd know I was telling the truth.
Too bad pride always gets in the way, because if I could tell you all this to your face maybe it would make a difference one day.
I'm sorry I was so cold and distant, it was not my intent, just know that I do love you and I wish you the best.