Where were we?
Ahh yes, so she left that one boy, the one that held her while she cried but that decided at some point to grow apart from her, so what now? She had met another one, the one that gave her butterflies in her stomach, something she had never really felt before, something she thought could never happen, maybe this time we shall give that boy a name, let's call him MD.
She met him at her new job, they did not really work together but the circumstances somehow always ended up making both of them a pair, this was during the time she still had her innocence, the time when she thought everyone was good, that no one had bad intentions.  The time when she thought everyone wanted to be a true friend and this new boy, he was something, he caught her eye, he made her smile just because he existed.
MD was someone she could not possibly ever explain, how could she? How do you explain to the world that you just met someone and you felt that you have known them for your entire life, that you know how they would react, how they would respond to certain things, it was impossible without ever having one talk with said person.
But there was something there, she knew, there was something more there, and it felt like he felt the same way.  One day he hugged her and she had never felt safer than when he held her, he was her big knight, the one that came to rescue her and just take her away, the one that would see her as a partner and that would think that with her by his side he could be the best of everything and she would have that drive to become the best she has ever been, because with him next to her any work, any struggle would be all worth it.
Weeks passed and finally she stopped working there, that night her old boyfriend had come to be with her, she was down and she did not know what she would do, she had just lost her job and the reasons behind it were some that she could not understand, because to her everyone was still good, so why would all of it had happened??? The truth was that there are bad people in the world and this was a lesson she had learned in a very tough way.
Anyhow, that same night MD called her and asked her to hang out for the very first time, ohh what a joyous call, she got up, got dressed and left, he was drunk but she did not care, it was her chance to spend time with him so she did.  When she got to his house he was wearing this fabulous slippers, very similar to the ones she had in the trunk of her car and playing Guitar Hero, she thought to herself that this man was more fun than she ever thought.
He looked at her that night and he had the biggest smile, his eyes seemed to showed that this was it, that he had it all right there because she was there, he did not need anything more, now that she goes back to it she realizes it was probably the buzz from him drinking that gave him that look.  They talked for hours that night, ended up kissing gently, the best kisses she has ever had, and she fell asleep on his arms, she was in heaven, the conversations they had, from making plans from being together, the best part of it all was when he used the words we and put it together with will work.  A true partner she thought! But how naive of her to believe in drunken words.
The sun came up and every time she would move he would hold her tighter, like he was afraid of letting her go, what a wonderful feeling to have someone that wouldn't want you to leave that is happy you are there, someone in whose arms you fit perfectly and because you fit perfectly you were always comfortable.  What a wonderful and grand night that was, but just like everything it came to an end, the next day once he got up he made believe like nothing happened, walked her to her car and said bye, so she left and did not hear from him for a few months.
After a couple of months a call comes in, almost 2am, and it's him!!! What a wonderful surprise maybe after all he did want her, but he was drunk again, what did it mean? The last time that happened nothing more than kissing and talking had happened so was it really what people said that alcohol is liquid courage and he was just saying what he was unable to say when he was sober? The first night he did this and she was at his house she saw a self help book, she always thought that maybe he was a real introvert and very shy, maybe that's why he called only when he was drunk.  Once again, how naive of her!!!
She drove to meet him because he was an hour away from where she was and she could not let him drive that whole way while he was drunk, because if something were to happen to him, she could never forgive herself.  She drove and met him, then she followed behind him until they got to her place, a hotel room in a hotel that was right next to the place where they both used to work at.  He parked his car and once he got off the car and saw her he gave her the biggest hug of all, one of those hugs that makes you feel wanted, missed and pretty much tell you that other person does not ever want to let you go, a hugged that can only be described as a hug of love.
That was another night of talk, another night of them making plans, most of which came from him, but that fell through, because the next morning he picked up and left, just sneaked out the door.  She called him and until now she does not remember what he said but he was very cold and distant, she did not hear from him for another two months.
A couple of months went by and she had changed rooms at the hotel she was living at, now she was facing the place where they used to work together, one day she looked out the window and saw him standing right in front of where her car was parked.  He was talking to a customer when she decided to press the panic button of her car keys, the alarm went off and the boy was looking all over and seemed to have gotten completely distracted, she was looking at him and suddenly she sees him look up, she was by her window and decided to duck down and hide, she laughed.  What a wonderful little game she had played that day, she knew he would call her that night, and so he did, it was past midnight and her phone rang, it was him and he asked her if she was still in the same city, then asked her if about the car that had an alarm go off earlier that day, he wanted to know if it was hers.  She smiled, she was just a kid then and most times she did not know how to respond to anything but after that one conversation she decided it was time to move on, she was talking to a guy that only seemed to want to talk to her when he was drunk and then if they saw each other nothing really ever happened and so she always wondered what he really wanted and what was holding him back.